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Last Post – New Blog

22 Mar


Hello to all of you beautiful people who have followed me from the start. I’m sure you have noticed the lack of posting in recent months, and I didn’t want to leave you all high and dry without the news of why that is.

I’ve started a new blog: christinakaylenhart.wordpress.com

I need to focus more on writing, and actually building more of an author site. Thank you for sharing this journey with me, and if you’d like to stay in touch, click the link above to follow my new blog.

Much love to all of you!


Old Regrets & New Beginnings

13 Feb


You don’t know what you got ‘til it’s gone.  Why is that phrase so damn true?  We really don’t appreciate what we have until it’s gone.  It’s funny how we take so many things for granted; things, people.  It’s not unusual to regret losing something.  Regret is one of the most common denominators among people.  We are all pretty foolish when it comes to being grateful and realizing what we have right in front of us.  We don’t know how lucky we are until we’ve lost it. 

It’s only after we’ve lost it that the wheels start spinning and we start thinking and remembering how happy we were.  But remembering a happier time in our lives won’t bring it back to us.  It will only bring a strong feeling of regret.  We find ourselves asking why a lot.  Why didn’t I do this?  Why didn’t I say this?  Why didn’t I recognize what I had?  Sometimes bad things happen so good things can come along.  Maybe we lose something but later in life we realize it was necessary in order to achieve something else.  When one door closes another one opens. 

With that aside, we have two choices when it comes to regret; try and get it back or simply try and move on.  If it’s something that can’t be brought back, we move on the best we can.  Time is the best remedy.  If it comes to a certain person you think you miss, you can try to win them over and get them back in your life.  But you also have to ask yourself the question why you want them back. 

We have a tendency to remember the good times with people, not the bad.  Try to remember all of it equally; the good, the bad, the ugly.  Then ask yourself if it’s something you really want back in your life; whether it be a person, a thing, a hobby, a job.  If it is, then go for it.  Regret tends to mount and get worse the older we get, especially if it’s something that truly meant something to us.  So whatever is going on in your head, just remember that it’s never too late to try.  I’m convinced that trying is better than wondering what if for the rest of your life.   

Stand For Something

9 Feb


Stand for something, or you’ll fall for anything.  We’ve all heard it a million times, and it doesn’t get any less true the more you hear it. 

The truth is…having conviction and morals is what’s going to keep you grounded and keep you from making big mistakes.  Or as many as you would have without them, anyway. 

Stick to your guns.  Don’t change for anyone.  Not unless, of course, you need to change something in yourself to live a more peaceful life. 

I’m sure you’ve all heard it…

We’re born alone, and we will die alone. 

Sure, it’s cliché, but it’s true.  Just remember that when you find it unbearable and impossible to be alone.  Being lonely isn’t just some sorry feeling or pitiful adjective to describe a person, it’s a necessity.  Learn to cope with it.  One day you’ll miss that feeling and wish you had more time to yourself.   

If you don’t love the person that you are, no one else will.  Take advantage of the time you have left and become the person you want to be.  Truth is…you’re the only thing holding yourself back.  Nothing is going to fall into your lap.  If you want something, you have to go after it.  Sure, I believe in fate and believe that whatever is meant to happen will happen…but only to a certain extent. 

You can’t sit inside all day and hold on to that idea.  Nothing is going to knock on your door and ask you if you’d like a dream to come true.  You’re the author of your own life.  You’re in control of what’s going to happen next.  Take charge and stop holding on to the hopes that one day things will work themselves out, because they won’t.  I’m sorry, it just doesn’t work that way. 

So get off you’re a$$ and hustle.  I’m so sick of hearing people complain about their lives while they’re doing absolutely nothing to change it…

In the Name of Love…To Forgive or Not to Forgive?

6 Feb



We all know it- love is what makes the world go round.  Practically every story is based on love or incorporates it in some way.  I’ve been looking for it with my eyes at least half open since I knew about the birds and the bees.  I like to think that real love exists.  I’ve thought that I had found it.  I know I did.  I think?  How can you be certain?  Do you just know it?  Do you just feel it?  I have felt it.  I know that I have.  I just wonder about certain things in this area.

There’s obviously a huge divide between love and lust.  Sometimes we confuse them or don’t recognize the difference.  Lust, to me, is when you practically drool looking at the individual, imagining him or her naked, but the conversation is dull or non-existent.  Love is when the two are equal or as close to it as you have found (so far).  You have a strong mental connection and physical attraction as well.  You connect on all levels and care deeply for one another. 

But do we only have one soul mate? Or do we have several?  Hundreds?  Do we have different soul mates for different times in our lives?  I know someone who was perfect for me three years ago would be far from it today.  But that’s because I was in a different place in my life three years ago.  We are constantly changing, and therefore so are our wants and needs.  We prefer different qualities and traits at different stages in our lives. 

Now I pose an uglier question…a question that might make you question your own relationship.  A question that some people might not like.  Just because you believe someone is the great love of your life, does it mean that you should forgive them?  Should you forgive them for something you wouldn’t forgive someone else for?  If a man hit you, would you forgive him, because you loved him?  Maybe that’s too extreme.  What if he cheated on you?  What if he called you a bitch?  Would you stand for it?  I say no.  Just because you love someone, doesn’t mean you should forgive them for causing you pain, or for doing something that in any other situation would be deemed unforgivable. 

It makes me sad that so many people settle for someone who obviously isn’t right for them.  Someone who doesn’t deserve them.  I’ve seen so many women in abusive relationships and I just ask them why?  Why do you put up with it?  Why do you stay?  Why do you let someone talk to you like that, or treat you that way?  “Because I love him..”   I hate to say it…but if he loved you he wouldn’t treat you that way.  And if he does love you and still treats you like sh%t, leave.  Walk away.

I thought a relationship was meant to be equal.  No one person loved the other more.  No one person put in more effort than the other.  No one person was faithful while the other was not.  No one person was loyal while the other was not.  No one person was strong while the other was not.  Two broken people don’t make one strong person when joined at the hip.  It makes for a messy relationship. 




I believe you need to be certain of who you are before you can be certain of who you are looking for.

Silly Games that we Play…Whether We Want to or Not

5 Feb


Why do people play games in relationships?  It starts to feel like a long night of monopoly where everyone has houses and no one will win.  Why can’t people just be direct and say what they’re really feeling instead of avoiding the issue or ignoring the person altogether?  Someone once told me that false pride, ego, and stubbornness can ruin almost anything.  He was right.  And I was so angry and stubborn that I didn’t agree in the heat of the moment.  That’s the problem with our emotions.  They get the best of us.  They make us say and do things we regret. 

Although I believe in saying how you feel and speaking your truth, you have to be careful.  Because once you say something, you can’t take it back.  You can’t pretend it was never said.  Words are permanent, as much as they come and go, they linger long after they’re spoken.  People believe the negative faster than they’ll take a compliment.  This is especially true in relationships.  Someone can tell you you’re beautiful over and over and over again, but once he says something negative about you…you feel like he just started being honest. 

I’m not sure why we think so little of ourselves, or how we can overcome it and realize our potential.  I’m not sure everyone has this problem, maybe just the majority, maybe half the population.  Maybe I can only speak for myself.  You can never say all women or all men… because all of us aren’t the same.  Far from it.  We’re all different.


…but we’re all human.


Typical Sunday

3 Feb

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It was a typical Sunday morning, spent hung up and wishing I was hung over. I was deathly bored with the people I was surrounded by. They were unenlightened, uninspired and unhappy. And most of them thought of me as the weird one. In all actuality, maybe I do seem like an odd creature to them. Maybe I am odd because I express my opinions about the endless things that I think don’t make sense in the modern world.

It’s unusual to me that so many others don’t seem to even have an opinion, let alone own any. It seems weird to me that so many others have no interesting thoughts or ideas, and if they do they don’t express them. It’s a bit odd to me that so many people don’t create things, anything, nothing. What do all of these people do besides watch television and unknowingly be brainwashed into believing everything the media leads them to? Media tells us what to wear, what to believe, who to be, who to like, who not to like, what to fear. Media is not salvation. Media is bullshit. And it’s bullshit that so many people are allowing themselves to be controlled. Mass production, mass stupidity.

I refuse to buy clothes at department stores anymore. I stick to salvation army and thrift stores. Is everyone aware that most of these clothes are made by immigrants in sweat shops in other countries? These workers are mainly women and young girls that are extremely underpaid and overworked. They are typically locked inside the factories for 12 hour shifts and in several cases there have been fires, where they couldn’t escape and every single one of them burned to death. Now some people argue that working in sweatshops is a better fate for these young girls, instead of working in prostitution. The lesser of two evils. Either way, it’s evil. It’s based upon American greed. We would rather pay someone .69 cents an hour instead of $7.00 an hour. Then we can stick the designer’s tag on it, sell it in America for extremely high prices and make a very high profit. Is the profit worth treating human beings like that? Is the shirt you’re wearing worth someone’s blood, sweat and tears? Does anyone care? Or does it not matter, because we aren’t the ones being worked to death. We aren’t the ones who suffer. We just enjoy the result. And we as a people are so greedy, we have the joy of overconsumption. We consume more than we ourselves can produce, hence the mass production is more reliable and convenient and enjoyable.

And maybe, just maybe, no one gives a shit about my opinion. I’m not some famous reality star, or actress, or anybody, really. Who am I to tell people the truth? Or my truth, anyway. Is that even allowed? Is the government going to punish me for writing this? Or simply for thinking it? For seeing through their bullshit and actually having the courage to question their motives and what is real and what isn’t? If we are never told the truth, do we even know what’s going on? I can admit that I don’t know what’s going on, but at least I’m curious enough to question it.